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Happy Holidays everyone! :)

December

What happened the past couple of days?

December 6, 2008
- Basil's Birthday
- Saw a lot of old classmates, sisters' classmates and old schoolmates at the mall who I haven't seen in a million years
- Met a new 친구~! 레이니 언니. I love her. She was so sweet. Gonna go out again next week
- Starbucks. One more sticker to go to get another planner.

December 7, 2008
- Dance class with the Philippine All Stars
- Bing's birthday

December 8, 2008
- Diliman Trip, didn't get to see Maui though. Grr.
- Shaneen's Birthday!

This must be one of (if not, the most) happiest times in my life where I'm happy out of my wits that it's finally raining again. Today was just depressingly hot, like you don't even KNOW hot. Global warming is finally making me feel like I do live in the Philippines.. Reminding me that it's never going to snow, and it's never going to be as cold as I want it to be. So imagine how ecstatic I was when I started hearing rain again.

Like 'like in a boy-girl' kind of like?

Recently, a boy showed me his heart and told me how he felt for me. I could never take confessions like those lightly and easily. I've had two boys confess to me in the past, and my initial reactions were doubt and something close to mistrust. Were they leading me on? Were they playing and toying with my feelings? But with this present confession, instead of logging out of my messenger and trying to squeeze out of him that he was probably joking, I listened to what he had to say and formed mental images of us together as a couple in my head. I tried to make it sound happy, but the reality is that we don't even know each other too well to actually have a relationship. Few with this words, he poured out his heart and made me feel lucky to have somoene like him like me in a boy-girl way. I intentionally did not reply fast enough because with situations like this, you can never be sure with how he's going to take your words or your actions. I don't really recall what I told him that day though, but I'm quite sure it made him uncomfortable because now, we barely talk anymore. Actually, even before, we never really talked a lot. It was more of a hi-hello kind of relationship. Sometimes, I don't understand why he likes me in that way anyway. What did he see in me? There were a lot of prettier girls around me. But who I am to question his feelings and his motives, right?


In a lighter sense, all the gazes, looks, and the glances that I see him steal from me occassionally make me question how things are going to work out between us. Maybe I'm taking this way out of proportion. Hopefully, things will fizzle out right before the year ends.

iPod shuffle

It's so great when you put iTunes in shuffle mode, but it plays all the nice songs in the whole song list, and skips all the ugly ones, even if you didn't program it to do it that way. You'll understand when it happens to you. Shuffle is the best when it's not so gay and picky.

Home alone

Home alone again. Classes ended early so I have - yet again - all the free time in the world a frosh can ask for. What else to do? Practically nothing. If I had known that it would be this boring to have so much free time, I would have chosen to be studious and/or actually think of studying. I have so much free time that it's not even funny anymore. I think I passed through all 7000+ pictures and videos of K-Pop for so many times already (not that I'm complaining, though).

Currently playing: Untouchable by SG Wannabe

PS. Please watch Hotel Rwanda. To those who actually have a heart, I hope this movie touches you as it did with me. It's tragic when you realize that the things you see on screen actually happened in real life.

I found

I have a classmate who has almost the same number as mine. It made me feel happy because if you noticed, we have the EXACT same numbers, except that the 6th and 7th are switched with 8th and 9th respectively. If you didn't get that, you're not so smart. Anyway, it made me feel a little good because it sort of made me gush and for a moment, I actually started to believe in soulmates again. Up until when I found out about this, I sort of let the whole 'soulmate' idea go because a disappointing experience in the past made me believe that soulmates are only meant for movies. So when I found out that this boy had the same number as mine, it had to mean something. I mean, out of all the numbers he can gave, he had the same number as mine?And we were studying in the same school, with the same block, same classes, same course. And he sort of believes in what I believe in as well. We both agree on a lot of things, and we have a lot of similiraties. Soulmates? I think so. But in truth, I really don't think so. But whatever. It's rare for things like this to happen. I think I'm putting this way out of proportion, but let me live in a little moment of bliss. I'm not saying that I do like him, though. I don't. It's too early to call it like that. And I'm not even interested. Love is not a matter of when, it's a matter of who. And I think it's obvious that I'm still too young, naive, and clueless about the whole "love" thing. On a brighter note, I passed my History Exam.